Juz Thoughts

I'm tired of maintaining a "friendly" blog in a world that's generally unfriendly and filled with people with intentions that will never be 100% clear to me. I ask myself why I've kept writing and the only logical reason that I can come up with is: I just really want to see how long I can last.

It's in my blood. I'll fight til either of these happens:
1) I drop dead
2) I lose interest

I wouldn't exactly call the week that has passed a good week. But I've been through more upsetting times. I've even been through highly traumatic phases that spanned years. The only difference between now and then is that right now, I'm putting the best and worst of me out there for everyone who chances upon this site to see and judge. It's a whole new experience - not at all fun, but definitely very challenging, very trying, and very enriching.

For a highly sensitive and emotional person like me, blogging has gotta be the worst choice of hobby. But I'm also a rebel by default. I just have to see how this will end.

My mind's really busy right now; I need to unload. I'm thinking about things and people that irk me, and also about those that have a soft spot in my heart.

I think about "virtual" friends that I have lost touch with for a while now: Andrew Unknown (welcome back!), Harry and Moyo;

I think about J;

I think about the one that I always have an extremely soft spot for: Denarii

When I think of what he's going through now, there's just no room within me for other emotions anymore.

I wish that his daughter will recover quickly, and that he will be back on his feet in no time again.

I'm not sure that my prayers will be answered, for I'm not ready to forget yet.

So, I hope that those who are reading this will remember Denarii in your prayers.