I've not quite settled down. New home is almost done up, so I guess it's really just the heart that's still floundering. I look back at year 2011, and can only boast of one miserable achievement: making half a million off a property purchased in 2008.
I have taken a really long break from trading, blogging, and just about everything else since August to do some deep soul-searching. It's unfortunate that I'm still as confused as ever as to what my purpose in life really is. I've had many long conversations with D, whose patience and wisdom I have come to appreciate. To my question of why nothing seems to motivate me to make money anymore, D's reply is that it is because what I want is what I can never buy with money, and all the things that I want in life that can be bought, I have long been able to afford them.
2 weeks before Christmas, I startled D by announcing my intention to have a baby boy.
It took D 2 weeks to talk me out of my crazy idea by reminding me that if I were to go ahead with my plan:
1) I will not get to do a workout (which I have been doing a fair bit lately) for a very long time
2) I will not get to trade for a very long time
3) I will not get to work for a very long time (I will never let someone else look after my child)
4) I will not get my "alone time" (minimum of 6 hours per day, and a stretch of 30 days every quarterly) for possibly the next 16 years
5) there's a 50% chance it could be a baby GIRL
So there goes my only big plan for 2012.
My real estate career has been at a total halt, which is what depresses me the most these days. I just can't seem to be able to figure out which side of me to show the world to make it in the industry. I almost have no issue with door knocking and cold calling and handing out flyers to angry looking home owners - I simply haven't figured out how I should go about presenting myself to convince people who don't know me to want to sell and buy through me. In fact, I still haven't quite figured out if in Singapore, it is really the agent that matters.
All said, I have had a good year, and as always, it has been a better year than the previous'. I continue to count my blessings, among which there is nothing more precious than the wonderful people I have met via this blog. I thank all who have dropped comments, written emails, sent e-cards, and left facebook messages since late November, and promise that I will make replying you my priority once I get back to my pre-August momentum.
I hope to resume live trading in Jan 2012.