Today was supposed to be a non-trading day for me, so I didn't even have my charts opened. D had to work from home after all, so I went to work on my other project. All was well until D's mum came to mess with my mind AGAIN. I am starting to think she is evil. For the first time, I refused to hide my frustration. "PLEASE, Mama!" were the only words I summoned enough courage to say. She turned and walked away immediately, right when D came to check on us.
Long story short, I was too pissed to try to make sense of what happened, and by instinct, simply opened my charts so I could be at a happier place.
I ended up trading around the pivot level first in yen, then in oil - something I avoid doing especially during globex hours whenever I am not trading angry. After 3 trades, I realized the folly of what I was doing, and got out in the nick of time.
D spoke to his mum again, which I knew was going to be just another futile attempt to get her to accept me for who I am. According to D, she cried. I wasn't surprised. Manipulative females do that.
The verdict was exactly what I expected - mama is good and innocent; jules is eccentric and evil.
I will never be the person that D loves the most, and I'm glad I always know that. And I'm most glad that I have always taken it with a pinch of salt when he says he understands me.
I have been mentally prepared for a while now to move out with my cats when things get rough. I still cannot believe that D and I have come this far - a bad ending is easier to grasp.